I think it is important to have things to look forward to. More than that, things you are riotously looking forward to. I am more and more interested these days in giving things my all. Every spare scrap of feeling I have, I want to go somewhere. I’ve done that whole no-emotions thing and I don’t want any part of that anymore. No, it is time to devote emotion to things and let those feelings take up all the space they need.
It is a little scary, putting joy and hope forward, knowing it can fall through. Always, at any point. That is a fact I am always aware of and always have been. That isn’t a great state of mind to live in, I know, but it is what it is. The time will pass regardless, whether I spend it worrying or enjoying. If that is true, I can keep a corner of my mind for worrying if my brain insists, but mostly, I want to cast my eyes forward. I want to fill every day with as much hope and positivity as I can, and I am okay with some of that being for days on my horizon.
I have a few things coming up that has me excited for July, some in August, and then in October, November, and December. It’s not that September is destined for failure, but right now it doesn’t have anything pulling my attention. How fortunate—it means I get to add delight to my life. I get to make this life whatever I want it to be, I get to build a beautiful and flourishing life. I will pick some things to add to my September and I will pepper more throughout the rest of my year, too. How luck I am, indeed.